Minimalist black ink drawing of tall flowing grass blades in a Zen brush style, with simple curved lines on a white background, conveying stillness, openness, and quiet simplicity.

not enlightened yet

just a bit more effort

Suryacitta and his blind dog Bankei on the beach in the north of England

I spent more than 25 years seeking. The first 15 were within the Buddhist tradition; the last decade unfolded in the world of non-duality—watching video after video, reading book after book. Everything pointed to the same thing: it’s simple. And yet, no one seemed able to show it directly. If it’s so simple, why can’t they show it? I often wondered.That changed when I came across Emerson. It felt like a breath of fresh air—simple, direct, and without unnecessary words. In that clarity, it became obvious: there is
nothing to seek.I had always been waiting for some kind of cosmic experience, something dramatic or overwhelming. But what revealed itself was both utterly ordinary and quietly extraordinary. No fanfare, no cosmic bliss—just something completely obvious, hiding in plain sight.It become more and more obvious to me that the very words I was using and hearing where actually the problem. I was looking for the most refined concept there was about the truth of my being only not realising that a concept is just that, a concept, an idea and never the actual.Try This: Go to the experience the question takes you to.
What's not a thought?

Seeking is the Problem

All words are made—fabricated sounds and symbols we agree to treat as meaningful. They point, label, describe, but they are never the thing itself. Even the words “reality," "non duality" are just constructs a sign trying to capture what
cannot be contained.We live as if words are solid, as if they hold truth, yet they only circle around what is already here. What you’re looking for isn’t in the language about it. Freedom, or realisation, isn’t found in better descriptions or more refined ideas—it is
noticed in the gaps.Before a thought appears, after it fades, and quietly in between words, there is something unspoken and unchanged. That is not captured by language, only overlooked by it.Try this: Go to the experience the question takes you to.
Without language what are you seeking?

One To one Sessions

Private session are available over zoom They will only be shareed publicly over YouTube only if both parties agree.Our private 1:1 sessions are not meant for intellectual debate or the acquisition of new spiritual theories. Instead, we use this direct conversation to strip away the "intoxication" of language and look at what remains when the story stops.Beyond the shifting landscape of your thoughts, feelings, and definitions, there is a steady, undeniable presence that is always already here—the one thing you didn’t have to think into existence.These meetings are a shared space to sober up from the search and recognize the obvious, ordinary reality that has never been hidden.